by Jane/TakkyArashi

Disclaimer by Jane:

This is TOTALLY made up, and I don't own any of the people mentioned, obviously... Terachi Shinya, Ando Daisuke and the rest of Dir en grey belongs to the record company of the J- Rock band.

Rating: G (don’t know if I would increase this rating… depends on my mood)

Love U4 Good

Chapter 1 ~The Call~

By: Jane a.k.a TakkyArashi

Shinya sighed as he looked at the rain falling down outside the window. It was going to be an uneventful day for him again, not like it is weird, everyday IS uneventful for him anyway. He didn’t know why, but rainy days always make him feel blue.

Frowning, he looked at Puppy lapping up the milk in his saucer and let out a long sigh. Plonking himself on his couch, he picked up the remote control and started flipping through the channels aimlessly. He was suddenly distracted by the sound of his keitai ringing. Stretching his arm lazily towards the phone, he answered it wearily.

“Moshi moshi, is that Shinya?”

“Hai, you are…”

“Aww, Shin-Chan, don’t you remember me?”


Die laughed as he imagined Shinya’s reaction on the other line.

“Ne, ima wa genki desu ka?”

“Hai, genki desu…”

“Look, I’m calling to see if you would like to join our band.”

“Your band?” Shinya asked, puzzled.

“Sou! Kaoru, Kyo and I have decided to reform the band and we’ve managed to get a new bassist. We need a drummer and all of us agree that you’re the best candidate!”

“Hontou? Aa, demo I don’t know if I wanna get in a band again…”

“Aww, c’mon, Shin-Chan, it’s our dream together to get famous someday!”

“I know, but…”

“We’ll make it this time, Shinya.”

“I really don’t know…”

“Okay, make it this way, you don’t have to give us your reply now, but we really hope that you’ll come back.”

“Arigatou. I’ll think about it, I promise.”

There was an awkward silence as the two ex-bandmates tried to think of something to say.

“Ne…” the both of them said at the same time.

“Ano… you go first.” Die said over the receiver.

“How’re the others?”

“Oh, Kyo’s pretty much the same, forever sleeping and he’s complaining that none of us are as comfortable as you are.”

“Sou.” Shinya said smiling at the memory of his ex-vocalist using his lap as a pillow.

“Yeah, and lately, he’s getting more and more sadistic. That little devil, he’s contemplating what is the best way to cut a person up making sure that the person is still aware of it. He once tried to use a knife to poke Kaoru in his butt!”


“You know how he is like! But thank God Kaoru reacted quickly, so he managed to escape with only a tear in his pants where the knife grazed his butt.”

“Thank goodness…” Shinya said in relief.

“But Kyo wasn’t THAT lucky though. **snickers** Kaoru held his throat until he turned blue and banned him from using sharp objects. Kaoru also suspended him from going on breaks for a week! The little devil’s can only use plastic crockery now and of course, trying to come up with new ideas as to how he can make use of the plastic to torture a person.”

“Baka!” Shinya said, giggling.

“And Kaoru’s still the old man that he is. Only lately, he’s also become a slave driver. Not that we ACTUALLY obey, but he’s anxious to find a sound belonging to the new band and the fact that he can’t seem to find a right drummer is getting him on a panic streak. And, he’s particularly interested in Totchi…”


“Our new bassist.”


“The guy’s so incredible! The first time he can for the audition, all of us were stunned! Kaoru was muttering if he forgot to mention in the advertisement that we were looking for a male bassist. **laughs** Ended up that Totchi IS a male!”


“He cross-dresses like you do, Shinya.”

“Sou… But I was MADE to do so, thanks to you guys.” Shinya said, pouting.

“Aww, that’s because you look sooooo pretty! It’ll be a waste if you don’t.”

“I’m a guy, for God’s sake!”

“Aww, c’mon, everyone thinks you look great!”

“Yeah right.”

“It’s true!”

“Enough about me, so, tell me more about this Totchi guy.”

“He’s a great person to be around! And he’s REALLY pretty. He totally took Kaoru’s breath away the moment Kaoru saw him! And now, Kaoru’s soooo easily manipulated by him! It’s thanks to Totchi that we get our breaks and end our sessions earlier. All he has to do is to whisper in Kaoru’s ear and our Kaoru-sama will go all weak in his knees. And agree to everything like a little puppy!”

Shinya giggled at the thought of that. Who would think that a guy would be able to knock the MIGHTY stern and firm Kaoru off his feet?

“Demo ne…” Die started, sounding serious.

“Hmm? Nani?”

“I think you’re still the prettiest, Shin-Chan.”

“Uso!” Shinya said laughing.

“No kidding, Shinya.”

Shinya didn’t know how to react to that.

“So, are you seeing anyone now?” Die continued.

“That’s a secret.”

“Not again, Shinya.”

Smiling, Shinya replied “You know I don’t like to discuss that, Die.”

Sighing, Die continued “Alright then. So, what are you doing right now?”

Before Shinya could reply, he smelt a burning smell from his kitchen. Saying his goodbye frantically, Shinya rushed into his kitchen to save his burning dinner…

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Die sighed loudly as he put down the phone reluctantly. He missed the drummer loads… Ever since he first set his eyes on Shinya, all he could ever think of is the beautiful drummer. He knows he would never get a chance with Shinya. As feminine as Shinya looks, the boy is straight. Kaoru has told him that he has to move on because Shinya will never consider Die as someone more than a friend and bandmate. Die knows that their leader is right, which is why Die never did tell Shinya about his feelings for the drummer. Yet, every single night, he’ll find himself dreaming of Shinya, dreaming of him locked in a passionate kiss with the drummer, dreaming of them becoming one. The longing was becoming unbearable for Die and he ended up trying to control his emotions by keep teasing the drummer. That didn’t go well with the drummer and Die wished he would learn to shut his mouth when he should. When their band disbanded, Die was devastated. He couldn’t believe that he had to part with the pretty drummer, couldn’t believe that he will not get to see the fragile-looking yet extremely strong boy everyday again. That was when Die started sleeping around… He wanted to find someone to replace Shinya in his heart, but time after time, it only made him more miserable than ever. His heart could contain no one but Shinya. Many a times, during his flings, he would be yelling Shinya’s name, imagining that it was Shinya that he was making love with. That offended many of his partners, even made a couple of them cry, but Die couldn’t help it. He wondered how much longer he can actually stay sane. When Kaoru suggested that they reform the band, Die hoped that Shinya would come back too, that was why he volunteered to call the drummer.

“Shin-Chan, please come back… I can’t live without you, please come back… “ Die silently prayed in his heart as he struggled to hold back the tears and longing in his heart…

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Credits: Eh, don’t know any credits, but I really don’t know how this story is going to go either… hahaha, erm, I should know better to start a new fic when I still have two other on-going fics… **sigh** it’s time I learn to write more one-time fics yo… ;__; Anywayz, please do review the fic, would really appreciate it, arigatou! ^o^’


to be continued

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