Fight for Your Love
I have known you for so
I met you in the bus sometime ago
And talked with you
You told me all
About god and the world
And I guess there it happened.
( Nicole 'I'm feeling something
you don't feel' )
He watched Kaoru's head lower to the
sheets of paper, laying
across the table, and studying them
with great interest. His nose
crinkled and his eyebrows narrowed as
his companion pulled the sheets
closer, slightly humming the notes
along, getting to know the sound
of the composition.
"What do you think?", he asked
fearfully. He hadn't composed
something more 'him' for years and was
a bit afraid of their leader's
opinion. Now, the reminding silence was
about to drive him crazy.
[Hmmm?? What is that supposed to
mean?] "Nandesu ka?"
Kaoru tilted his head upwards and
smiled at his nervous
friend. "It's beautiful Shinya-kun!"
Relief started to wash over the
young drummer and a bright (
and a rare one too ) smile made it's
way to his lips. "Domo
arigatou! I'm glad you like it
"Kaoru likes _what_?", an
familiar voice spoke up.
Shinya cringed inwardly and his
face fell noticeable. He'd
recognized this voice even if they
would have been in a huge crowd of
chatting people. How could he not? This
voice was teasing him,
hunting him 'til his dreams were filled
with the image of it's owner
again and again. Dreams about a smiling
and loving Die, caressing him
and cuddling him close. They'd gone so
far that he could almost feel
the warmth radiating from the other's
strong body, feel the tickling
sensation of lasting kisses on his
white porcelain skin and taste the
salt of the other's lips.
[Yameteya Shinya! You are a MAN
and he's a MAN for goodness
sake! Don't forget that you baka!]
"Earth to Shin-chan, are you in
Blushing furiously the petite
drummer snapped back to
reality, seeing his two friends and
bandmates doubling over for
laughing at his red face. "Stop it...."
"What did you _think_ about Shin-chan?",
Die wanted to
know. "Could it be that little Shin-chan
has grown up and finally
shows an interest in a G I R L?"
"IIE!" Shinya refused hastily.
_Too_ hastily for them to
believe. Sadly he lingered his eyes to
the ground as the two started
to laugh again and clenched his fists.
[What would I give if it
really WAS a girl....but....it's not
like I've fallen for him, right?
It's just lust. Yeah, that's it, I lust
after him.....has nothing to
do with emotions or stuff like
"Geez Shin-chan, don't be so shy,
"Yeah come ON Shinya-kun, we want
to know which type of girl
Die smirked evilly. "Maybe Shin-chan
is afraid we snap her
away if he tells us!"
"Iie! I told you already there's
"See?" The guitarist smirked even
wider and patted Shinya's
shoulder in an attempt to loosen him
up, whilst bending down to his
ear and whispering, "But Shin-chan you
should KNOW we won't do that!
Your girl's save!"
"Die stop it!", the drummer said,
backing away from the
closeness which made his heart go
crazy. "I'm with no girl so shut
"Aww.....still afraid, aren't ya
Shin-chan? But okay, we'll
forget it for now, nee Kaoru-kun?"
Kaoru nodded amused, remaining
silent. He'd seen the
mischievous glimmer in Die's dark eyes
and knew that he was up to
something. After all it _was_ strange
that Die would leave Shinya in
piece for once. [Poor Shinya....]
Uncertainly light hazelnut-brown
eyes stared into dark black
ones. "Well........domo arigatou
Dai-san!", Shinya said politely,
unsure if he should believe the older
man or not.
"Doo itashi mashite Shin-chan,
doo itashi mashite!"
Two hours later, he and the
guitarist were walking home
together and Shinya knew he shouldn't
have believed the guitarist,
for he was teasing him with questions
about his 'girlfriend' again.
[Why does it have to be me?] Sighing he
shook his head once again no.
[Dear Kami-sama, let him stop already!
I don't know how much I can
bear!] And that was right. He didn't
know how much he could take if
not shouting the truth. But what _was_
"I'm _not_ sprung over a girl
Daisuke and you _know_ that
damned well!" [Well, at least _that_
"Yeah, yeah suuuuure Shin-chan!
Would you mind telling me
then why you have been spaced out
earlier?" Die asked curiously,
trying to get something out of the
Triumphantly the larger man begun
to laugh. "See? I _knew_
"No, it's not that Die,
really........I.....I just can't
The other man suddenly stopped,
staring at his friend
strangely. "You....don't trust
Taken off guard the drummer
flushed. "Sure I do, but......."
Die gave a sarcastic laugh,
ruffling his now chin length hair
in embarrassment. "No you don't and I
can't blame you
Shinya............after all I always
tease or make fun out of you,
"Iie Shinya, it's okay, I
understand pretty well!" Die smiled
sadly, his eyes cast down. [As long as
we know each other I've always
been an asshole to you........I can't
seriously think that you'll
believe me or trust me like you would
with the others, right? I'm not
angry Shinya, I
"......." [I don't think you do
Die......I don't think you
"Well, come on, it's getting late
and I still have a date to
"A...a date......?", he
stammered. [A date?] Die had a date?
Well, of course he had a date. Die
wasn't shy nor did he have this
strange feelings towards other men ( at
least not that Shinya knew ),
so why should he stay alone in a
beautiful night like these? [Geez
Shinya, you sure are innocent! You know
perfectly well that Die had
had many dates before and that this one
probably won't be his last!]
The thought however stabbed right into
him and he paled noticeably.
"Yeah, with Keiko-chan, ya know
this cute girl from.......no
wait, you haven't been with us in that
new club in minato-ku, nee?
Anyways, she's very cute and damned
sexy...hehe!", Die explained
cheerfully, before giving his friend
one last encouraging smile and
vanishing in the street where he lived.
[So he's with a girl.........oi
Shinya! Did you think it
would be a guy? Of course it's a
pretty, sexy girl with all her
curves in the right place!] The young
man bit his lip as he started
to walk towards his home too. [His last
been with us, nee?'.......what should
that mean? Maybe I should go
out more often with
Sadly he entered his apartment,
immediately stepping out of
his shoes and taking off his coat.
After pouring him some green tea
with sakura blossom flavour he plopped
down on his knees to watch a
bit TV. Oricon charts, to be exact. But
unfortunately, he couldn't
concentrate on them. His thoughts
always drifted back to the crimson
haired guitarist and his date.
[Fuck......stop thinking about him!
Hear me? Quit it!.........I wonder what
they do right
Shinya sighed and cuddled his
dog, who'd just woken up from
it's soundless sleep and forced itself
to it's owner to greet
him. "Oh puppy.....you are so lucky,
ya know? You haven't any
problems with that....love
thing........I wish I could be a
Puppy only stared at his
beautiful feminine owner, it's big
eyes widening in confusion. [He thinks
I don't know about love and
it's pain? What does he think I am? A
robot or a puppet?] For one
minute it remained silent, then it
sweatdropped mentally. [Oh
well......just because my name's
Puppy.....] After Puppy had worked
over that fact he started to bark,
licking it's owner's face,
tickling him with it's rough tongue and
causing the young man to
laugh slightly. [At least he's
laughing] the dog thought proudly.
"Puppy! Stoooop *laugh*! That
[Stop? Naaaaaaw, you aren't
serious Shinya-sama, nee? I won't
stop the fun right now!] And the
licking and tickling went ahead
until Puppy itself was out of breath
and curled into a tight ball
beside it's master, soon snoring
Gasping for air, an huge grin on
his face Shinya lay on the
ground, feeling happy and light for
once. It had been a while since
he'd last enjoyed playing with his dog
so much and it'd been long ago
since he had had the time to do that.
But now, he watched his little
dog sleep, listening to it's sounds and
feeling a big love raise in
his heart for his pet. It really fit
the saying 'The best friend
you'll have in your life is a dog'. If
he needed comfort or a little
warmth, he could be sure that Puppy was
there for him and he was glad
he could be there for Puppy too.
Slowly, he drifted off into peace-
full slumber, dreaming from Puppy's,
certain Guitarist's and a pretty
ugly girl he'd gotten to knock dead.
Tiredly he managed to crack open
one eye, closing it not one
second after the bright light hit him
like a rock. Where was he? And
_what_ did he do there? "Fuck!", he
cursed, finally getting to open
his eyes, shielding them with his
window.....not my apartment,
that's for sure!] Die groggily sat up,
groaning as his head throbbed
with the motion. He let his gaze wander
through the room he was in
and finally noticed he wasn't alone.
Right beside him, stretched out,
lay a naked body, obviously feminine.
After some passing moments he
remembered. Sure, that was Keiko-chan
whom he'd dated yesterday. They
had gone out to dinner and afterwards
she'd suggested to go to her
apartment to have some 'tea'. Well,
having 'tea' was definitely
something he enjoyed and so he'd
agreed. Die sighed and carefully
stood up, trying not to wake the young
women, searching for his
clothes. After he'd found them he put
them on and decided to leave.
He always had been uncomfortable if his
lover's had woken up and saw
him leave. They didn't understand.
[Can I blame them? Of course they
don't understand you Die,
you don't even understand yourself!],
he thought as he walked out of
the house in the refreshing air. [Why
doesn't it feel right to me to
sleep with this girls? Why? Because I
leave them in the
morning?........no, I didn't leave them
before I got this
feelings........what _are_ this
Opening his own apartment he went
in and closed the door
softly. Taking care of his shoes and
jacket he strolled over in his
little kitchen preparing himself some
coffee whilst nagging on some
rice crisp. As the coffee was ready, he
poured himself a cup and
headed for his bed to enjoy the last
few minutes before he needed to
go to practice. Oh yes,
practice.....where he would meet....
He smiled as he thought about the
feminine drummer glancing
at him angrily, his eyes glittering
full with energy and his mouth
pouting. Shinya definitely was cute
when he was mad. And now that
Shinya had a crush on some girl, it was
easy to find something to
tease the younger man. Die's lips
immediately curved into a broad
grin. He was happy for his friend,
finally to find someone,
but........strangely somewhere deep he
felt sad about it, too. Maybe
because he was the only one being
single then. He sighed deeply,
drank his last sip and hurried over to
his wardrobe searching for
something to wear.
"No.....iie.....not over my dead
body......I'm _not_ crazy am
I?...........YES!", he muttered between
his breath, finally choosing
some pants and shirt to put on and
hastily making his way over to
Storming into the studio room he
flashed his friends one of
his best smiles and greeted them with
an cheerful, "Ohayou!"
"Long night Die?"
"Hey guitar-man, did you see my
"Ohyaou gozaimasu Die-san!"
Die grinned amused, mentally
shaking his head over his
strange friends. "Osu leader-sama! Hai
Toshiya-kun, long night, iie
Kyo-kun, I didn't see your scorpions
thank God, Shin-chan why so
"Don't call me that Die-san, you
_know_ I don't like that at
all!", Shinya said pouting. [Long
night, huh? So he did have _fun_
with this chick........]
The guitarist chuckled. "Hai, I
know Shin-chan but the name
"Say Shin-chan, how's your little
"DAISUKE!" Now the petite drummer
wasn't petite anymore, he
was fuming and embarrassed like hell.
"You know there's no girl!"
"Shinya has a _crush_? Tell us
Die-kun!", Toshiya cut in, big
brown chocolate eyes widening.
"IIE! I DON'T HAVE A CRUSH!"
Shinya hissed crossing his arms
in front of his chest, glaring at the
yesterday..... sorta..... spaced
out....", Die told the others, laughing
at Shinya's red face.
"Honto ni?", Kyo asked stunned.
"And why do you think it's a
"'Coz he denied it rather hotly
afterwards Kyo-baka!", Kaoru
"That's not true!"
Die turned to the young drummer,
grinning madly. "Shin-chan
come on tell us already!"
"FUCK YOU!", Shinya shouted
angrily, ready to kill Die in
that moment. [Why does he need to pick
on me? It's
mean!......Oh....how did I get myself
"Umm......I guess we better
should start practice nee?" Kaoru
suggested, seeing the drummers
murderously expression and the other
man's surprised one. "After all we
_do_ have a new song to practice,
"A new song?"
"Hai, Shinya-kun wrote this one,
Kyo-kun you do the lyrics
"Aye, Aye Leader-sama!", Kyo
"Shin-chan wrote an song?" [About
his mysterious girl?] Die
"Yes I did, although you don't
seem to believe I can do that
"Hey, I never said that Shin-chan!"
, Die immediately
refused. "Why'd you think I don't
believe you can write songs? I know
you can, very well to that!"
Shinya remained silent, his eyes
staring at his feet in
sudden interest. [He actually _asks_ me
that? He didn't say he liked
my songs before now! How am I to
believe him that one? After all he's
always joking and teasing
me...........even when he doesn't want to
he's hurting me...........]
"Shin-chan, are you mad at me?"
He chuckled ironically. "Iie
Die-san, why should I? You just
tease the hell out of me for no matter
at all........so why should I
be _mad_ at you?"
Unbelieving the crimson haired
man stared at his bandmate.
[He's really mad? Fuck......he didn't
get mad before, just
angry.......oh why can't I keep quite
for once?] "I'm sorry Shinya,
really I am! I didn't wanted to hurt
you, gomen nasai!"
"It's alright Die-san, let's
start practise nee?" [He didn't
wanted to hurt me? Die......you never
do anything else!]
"Well......if you think so......"
Kaoru sighed happily. It was
about time they could start with
the new song! He quickly showed them
their notes and soon the room
was filled with music, mixed with some
snoring sounds because of Kyo
who'd fallen asleep once again. (
ZZZZZZzzzzzzz >_<;; )
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